eco.logic.soul

Posts Tagged ‘paradox’

I am happy, yet sad. Joyous, yet angry. Hopeful, yet in despair. The world has shown me how amazing life, nature, people can be and I have experienced the awesomeness of the earth and her power and beauty. On the other hand, I see how utterly destructive humanity is and I can’t help but wonder how these two realities can co-exist at the same time. They are truly like parallel realities that I am sometimes able to walk between. I am deeply torn by my own sense of what is going on in the world today and how any type of meaningful change is possible. I talk to others who equally feel that there is something wrong with the world. There is definitely a commonness to what we see is wrong – the main difference is in how we look at changing things.

I see separation vs community as what fundamentally sets apart the viewpoints. It seems as if the dichotomy of human existence at this moment in history is between the old belief system that we are separate from each other and nature which isolates us – a very fearful place to be – when in fact we are inextricably connected in the web of life through the relationships we have with friends, family, communities – locally, regionally, nationally, globally – and even extending into our relationship with nature – plants, animals, mother earth, the solar system, galaxy, universe.

The idea that we are separate causes us to feel afraid of everything outside of ourselves, though usually will allow for safety and identity to include the circle of family and close friends. It is difficult to truly understand the idea that we are interconnected with other people and nature. Even talking about it in this way, I am making a distinction between humans and the natural world, yet even though we are very much a part of the natural world, we still tend to think of ourselves as separate from, outside of that category.

Yet even in this sense of isolation and separation that is pervasive in our way of relating to the world, there is a longing for community, a desire to connect back in to our true nature and experience the fullness of life that we are seeking and is unable to be fullfilled in isolation. The Oneness, Spirit, God, the Divine, Love, Pure Consciousness -whatever one calls it – it is here an we sense it. This is our hope. This is what calls to our souls and reminds us that we do not stand alone in this vast universe. We are all connected to one another, and as more and more people awaken to that reality, we will see more and more manifestations in the world that shout – we are all in this together!

I don’t know what you think of me
but I know right now what I want to be
I’m going down…
down in me
I’m going down
down too deep
Is there nothing I can do to show you
what it means to be me
what it means to be free
can you feel what I feel
I don’t need you to
but I want you to know
I still feel you
the pain of not knowing
the fear of me throwing-
-it all away
it’s enough to wonder why
enough to give me more insight
on living with an open mind
you’re giving me a reason why
I strive to keep from being blind
but now I’m on the outside
looking into your world
it’s too perfect for me
living in a non-existent reality
just ain’t the way things used to be
not anymore
I’m feeling torn